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| Hello xanga stalkers! I just wanted to wish each and every one of you a very late Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!  It's been about four months since I last wrote an entry and although I write a new blog in the first week of each year, I've been just so busy with work that I completely forgot! But don't worry...I'm back and I got lots to say!
A few weeks ago, I was looking back on some of my previous blog entries and wow I have changed quite a bit...well at least I think so. The first blog I wrote within this account (I had another xanga account previous to this one, but it froze and wouldn't work) was from November 2005. WOW! So much has changed over the past few years and it's amazing to think how fast time goes by.
So I've been entering the two words "what if" into a lot of my thoughts these days. What if I didn't wake up in time? What if I had gotten lost? What if I didn't get any of my scholarships for college? If you've ever talked to me, I can get pretty creative with these 'what if' scenarios. One day...I was highly bored when I decided to clean out my email inbox. Now, I love love love keeping everything I get, from cards to photographs to fortune cookie messages to random messages. I don't get as much genuine emails as I used to because it's all chain mail or spam but I found a few emails from 2005 (I know right!) that I thought were downright beautiful. So one of the emails I had gotten really hit me...so here it is...
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After Sept. 11th, one company invited the remaining members of other companies who had been decimated by the attack on the Twin Towers to share their available office space. At a morning meeting, the head of security told stories of why these people were alive... and all the stories were just: The 'L I T T L E' things .
As you might know, the head of the company survived that day because his son started kindergarten.
Another fellow was alive because it was his turn to bring donuts.
One woman was late because her alarm clock didn't go off in time.
One was late because of being stuck on the NJ Turnpike because of an auto accident.
One of them missed his bus.
One spilled food on her clothes and had to take time to change.
One's car wouldn't start.
One went back to answer the telephone.
One had a child that dawdled and didn't get ready as soon as he should have.
One couldn't get a taxi.
The one that struck me was the man who put on a new pair of shoes that morning, took the various means to get to work but before he got there, he developed a blister on his foot. He stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid. That is why he is alive today.
Now when I am stuck in traffic, miss an elevator, turn back to answer a ringing telephone...all the little things that annoy me...I think to myself, this is exactly where God wants me to be at this very moment.
Next time your morning seems to be going wrong, the children are slow getting dressed, you can't seem to find the car keys, you hit every traffic light, don't get mad or frustrated; God is at work watching over you.
May God continue to bless you with all those annoying little things and may you remember their possible purpose.
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Beautiful, huh? It really makes me feel like I am exactly where I'm supposed to be. And I realized that I need to stop thinking "what if..." There can be a billion possible things that could have happened at any particular second of your life...but God puts you in the right place at the right time because He has a plan for you.
Anyway so college has been great...er...sort of. I always wonder how it would have been if I had jumped on that offer to go to St. John's in New York. I love the city...I bet you couldn't tell from looking at my xanga layout but I just absolutely love the city. I get excited passing by downtown Dallas. I am not pathetic, thanks. Life in Denton is so...systematic. Well...I do like my life that way but sometimes it's just unbearable. It's like my whole semester was exactly the same with work, school, and internship. It didn't feel like I was getting the complete college experience. I wish I could do more fun stuff but who has the time and what the hell is there to do in Denton? I guess you could go out to a club with your girls or even catch a movie or whatever but man...that's so...normal. I guess I just want to do different things like...go to an art museum, learn to swim, jet ski, sky dive, helicopter tours, off roading...you know?! Damn prince charming just come take me away and let's do all this stuff on our dates! lol just kidding.
Speaking of prince charming...there's been a rush of songs that have come out about being independent and what not and man...those are my jams! Why be in a relationship when I stay fly flyin' solo?
So I've been working at my first retail job for five months now and damn...it is definitely teaching me how to be more patient! You know those virtues everyone's supposed to have like love, joy, peace, patience, blah blah blah? Well I definitely do not have patience. This winter break I had worked so many hours and there would be customers coming at me with different personalities and needs. There are those that are understanding and very kind. There are those needy customers that just don't understand when I say
"I'm so sorry but whatever we have out is the only size and or color we have available."
Customer: What do you mean? There's not another color in the back for this?
Me: No, I'm really sorry for the inconvenience.
Customer: *throws item on the table and mutters they're going to Macy's*
And then there are those that need to chill the fuck out. SERIOUSLY OMG I AM ONE PERSON HELPING OUT MORE THAN ONE CUSTOMER AND YOU NEED TO WAIT YOUR TURN OR NOT GO SHOPPING ON CHRISTMAS EVE AND EXPECT EVERYTHING YOU WANT TO BE HANDED TO YOU ON A SILVER PLATTER, SHIT! I rarely ever say the "F" word but damn...when I say that I wanted to literally bring out the hood in me...I am not joking. But with patience comes rewards. Yes, when I got my paycheck from that long hard 54 hour week...the nerves calmed down and I realized that after a few minutes of encountering these folks...they'll never see me again...unless they come back...but you know what I mean. Tying this back to the previous paragraphs, I realized that maybe God put me in these situations and threw in these "annoying little things" so that I could learn to be more forgiving and patient? Hmm...I shouldn't assume that they are all cold hearted people...I mean haven't you heard that the holiday season brings out the worst in shoppers? Maybe their bitchiness was because of some traumatic event that happened to them. Maybe they were having a bad day and they needed some venting and some retail therapy. Or maybe they're just plain bastards. Whatever the case may be, bless their little hearts and I hope they're happy with their discounted priced items that they ran into the store behaving like lunatics to get.
Anyways...since I'm in the venting mood, I might as well continue...you know what I despise? People who assume something when it's completely not true. Like if a boy and a girl always hang out but they deny any feelings and see each other as really good friends, shouldn't people respect that and let it be instead of turning it into some big love story? Seriously. Get. A. Life. And since when did people start keeping tabs on people? Can I not do one thing or hang out with one person without being questioned? I'm pretty sure I'm a big girl now and big girl's don't need to be monitored.
Okay so my fingers are starting to get tired and I can not think anymore. I know this post was slightly negative but you know what? It's all good. Sometimes you need to vent. Plus...since I forget a lot of things, reading old posts help me realize what was going on and when. So if you don't like it, meh. Can't please everyone right? RIGHT! Until next time, see you later xangstas!
Random ramblings of the night & let's throw in some New Years Resolutions!
-I think my scoliosis has gotten worse
-I like the smell of curry...but not on me
-Sushi is still amazing
-I want to live in uptown Dallas
-I think that means I have to be a balla
-I paid a lady to paint my toenails a pretty pink color. She chose highlighter pink.
-I wish I had a talent
-I will learn to play the guitar
-I will make a 4.0 this semester
-I will try to refrain myself from making rude/sarcastic comments
-Key word: try
-I will try not to be shady. LOL.
-I think it's time for me to go to bed so if I think of anymore I shall edit!
XOXO,
Katherine
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Lookin' at my watch, the time goes by...
Lookin' at the skies, the day goes by...
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| CHANGE
So in less than one month, my whole life will be changing...not that it already hasn't, but to another level. I'll be starting college, I'll be living on my own away from my family, and I won't get to see the faces of everyone I've grown to love and see everyday. Change is a very scary thought, but with change comes acceptance. Change=6 letters....Accept=6 letters...coincidence much? I have learned that with each stage of life, there comes many changes...some may be for the best, and some for the worse...you just need to learn to accept that things are not going to be the same.
"You know it's been said that we just don't recognize the significant
moments of our lives while they are happening. We grow complacent with
ideas, or things or people and we take them for granted and it's
usually not until that thing is about to be taken away from you that
you've realized how wrong you've been that you realized how much you
need it, how much you love it." These past four years, I have grown to love and deeply care for many people. It's sad sometimes to think that as the summer is ending, it may be a long while before I see them again...it just really sucks...
Other random thoughts...
You know...sometimes I wonder why I chose to go to UNT...I mean...I really really really wanted to go to St. John's University...or even some college in Boston...I know I would LOVE the city life...so why the hell am I in TEXAS!? Lately, I've been having a sushi fetish... OH and I read that Twilight book (GASP, I KNOW I READ A BOOK) that every girl is going crazy about....yeah it's good...I think it's funny when people associate you with your friends...like "Oh I thought you were a bitch because your friend is THE BIGGEST BITCH." Oh yeah? Weird....I don't know if I believe in marriage, I need to gain weight man wtffff I'll GLADLY welcome the freshman 15 or 30...I'm really really into print these days...zebra and cheetah OH MY! I admit, I'll miss working at Kyoto...Which came first, the chicken or the egg? I can't sleep during night time anymore...ugh, dang I look good today, Starbucks is still lovely, I want to buy everything yet I have no money to do so, I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-T DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEAN MAN?! I have no idea what I'm writing anymore...
xoxo,
Katherine
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| Goodbye Garland High School!
High school has ended...I can't believe four years has gone by already! It literally feels like yesterday that I nervously entered Garland High School...not knowing what to expect...whether the older kids would be cruel, or whether my teachers would be nice...WOW...Whether things were good or bad, it is merely a memory now. It's frightening to know that in a couple of months, I'll be entering college for the first time...experiencing the same nervous feelings I felt when I first entered high school...
So I was sitting in my seat during graduation, and watching all the faces go by...remembering a memory I had with each person...it was really sad...but I didn't cry...because I know whether or not I see these wonderful people again, I know they'll be great in whatever they do...because Garland High School Class of 2008 is the best.
Anywayyy...enough of the sad stuff! I really am looking forward to going to the University of North Texas! YEAUHHH! My roomates are freakin amazing, I love them I can't wait to start a new chapter of my life, and meet more amazing people, and do crazy things...like climbing the rock climber thingy at UNT LOL
So what else is going on with me...hmmm...oh I quit one of the two jobs I had...ummm I turned 18 in September...I got my nose pierced again lol I quit smoking lol jkjk I had prom with some fantastic people, I gave up my position as a HOSA officer *tear*, and I graduated...yeah my life isn't that crazy lol
Anyway...I don't really know what to write in here anymore...it's kind of early and I just had a sudden urge to write something in my xanga...I'm weird I know...okay breakfast time byeeeeee!
Love,
Katherine
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